Y-DAY YOU PROUD, NOW...

i used to read books and take lesson from it very well.
i used to stand with my own, not to wait til someone carry me.
i let my self gain weight so drastically to prevent my self from cheating!! that's a lied!! i do that because of ME! i just don't want to control my self from eating and drinking sugar.

my life has changed
there is no standard for what you call happiness!
are you happy enough when you realize you can make some money soon?
are you happy enough hanging around with some friends wasting money?
are you happy enough from graduating and have the "title" after your name?
what is happiness then?

many people seem happy when they meet holiday season. i tell you what, holiday is suck!
i lose my mind when it came to long holiday. i'm so tired of holiday because i'm so tired of my self.

i don't know if either holiday or my friends changed me lately. but right now, i just hate my self.
i let my self enjoy so much. wasting time and very depend on someone.
what i do is so wrong...
i'm no longer happy with my life. i have no dream... i have no ambition...
i just want the world and all the luck doing best from me. not me who is chasing for the world and my whole good luck. that's so boring and i can't take it any longer.

i have to bring my life back. there's no other day to start changing your life.

IT'S NOW